The right kind of problems

If I could care more then I would probably put a graph right here that shows on the x-axis units of time measured in years and on the y-axis a number representing an amount of problems. This graph depicts how I see life right now. Life is the function of problems by years. A good life would be a constant function where for any year of your life you would have the same amount of problems and that number f(x) would be somewhere between what you'd consider not too much nor too little.

What the hell am I talking about? Imagine a life with no problems. I guess you can't because dead people don't talk. They don't go on reality shows or podcasts. How are you supposed to know what a life with no problems would be? According to my definition life IS having problems. Only if you are dead does you line fall flat on the x-axis. Let's not go there.

What about a life with too many unsolvable problems like some incurable disease? That sucks. You don't want that either. You want problems you can solve and from those you want a constant amount throughout your lifetime.

This is a good place to be. You are not too busy thinking about how to survive. On the other extreme you don't feel useless because everything is provided for and there is nothing you need to do, to change or more importantly want to change. But I want to be in a specific place. I want the RIGHT kind of problems. The ones that keep getting harder and I keep getting better at solving them. Those kind of problems don't come easy I've learned. You gotta get lucky. Life must chef-kiss your destiny for you to get some of those and since we are basically the artifact of problems life threw at us you better hope it does.

Am I literally wishing for problems? Yes, I am. If I'm gonna have them anyway I might as well wish for the right kind. I also wish to be proven wrong so I don't get be wrong forever. I wish that I don't always get what I want because maybe that's for the best. I wish I'm lucky to be unlucky at the right times, miss the right trains, get dumped by the right people and reject the right offers. I wish for them and try to honor my wish when they find me, this is my pledge and my manifesto.

Picasso supposedly said "May inspiration find me working". I would add "and the right problems too". This is what I wish for myself and everyone I care about because wishing someone have all their wishes come true and problems never cross their way is what I would wish to my nemesis if I had one. I do not but if I ever do I wish it is the right kind.